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rooibos chai save me. save me rooibos chai
how is everyone doing? i hope you've all had a good holiday, and a good christmas if you celebrate! 🎄
christmas here was very quiet this year - i had my last day at work on the 22nd, working a sunday shift, and went straight out to my mum's place by train once i finished at six. i was so tired i spent that whole evening just sitting around sighing and groaning lmao. don't think i've ever slept so soundly. we opted to not celebrate with family this year, so it was just the two of us on christmas eve, and it was honestly lovely.
(i have got to get a job that isn't bloody retail. i had high hopes of managing that before the end of the year, but so far no takers. keep at it next year, i suppose.)
to get myself through the torment nexus that is christmas shopping from the wrong side of the register i've been listening to this audiobook of the wind in the willows which is up on bbc sounds (through some sneaky vpn usage, since i'm not in the uk), and getting regular little instalments of mole and rat and badger and toad has honestly saved my sanity a little this past month.
once i finish the wind in the willows, my read books tally for this year will clock in at 16, which is something like 12 or 13 more than i've been averaging over the past few years, i think, so i'm very happy with that. finally realising that i'm allowed to just read whatever silly nonsense i want has definitely been a large part of it: i've ploughed through something like eight or nine doctor who novelisations aimed at children and had a great time doing it.
i received a lovely little fic for yuletide!! i read it first thing in the morning (well, afternoon), while still in bed, on the 25th and enjoyed it very much: an angsty, introspective doctor/master oneshot for doctor who: scream of the shalka featuring injury-tending, which is just the kind of trope i love.
to my own shock, i also managed to finish my own yuletide fic. i don't think it turned out bad, by any means, but with each day that's passed since reveals i've kinda felt less and less happy with it. it probably doesn't help that i got someone i know well and whose writing in the fandom i admire very much as my recipient, because i wanted very badly to do the setting and the characters justice, and i don't feel like i was able to.
i'm trying to remind myself that i did spend december in the capitalism torment nexus, it was my first fic in the fandom, and - perhaps most importantly -
i have successfully yuletide-ed for the first time! 🎉 kind of a small milestone; i hadn't tried to do yuletide since i was forced to default twice when i first tried to do it, back in high school, and the experience was so guilt-inducing i never touched it again. 😅 now i can do it again in future without being scared!
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